Sunday, March 31, 2013

39 Weeks and This Is It!

During my last appointment with my doctor on Friday, we have decided that if baby find it too cozy to come out anytime soon, we will get me induced tomorrow morning 8am. 
So, yeah, we will be having the first April Fool's Day baby in our family!!  How happening!
I am happy and relief that I will soon be non-pregnant.  But at the same time, I feel lousy as labor induction feels like I am forcing my little one to come out when she is not 'ready'.  Bad mother.
I am trying to figure out my mixed feelings.  Of course, the labor pain, recovery and all.  On top of that,  I am worried about so many things.  If I will ever learn the art of breastfeeding.  If I will be able to divide my time equally between attending to a newborn and at the same time, not neglecting Isabelle.  I know I am going to miss Isabelle terribly for the next few days while I recuperate in the hospital. 
Tomorrow onwards, life is going to be so different.  It is never going to be the same.  Our family as 4 instead of 3. 
God bless Us!

Sunday, March 24, 2013

38 weeks!!

  • 38 weeks.
  • Hospital bag, checked. 
  • Shopping, done. 
  • Baby clothes, washed and smells clean and new.
  • Baby head engaged, YES!
  • Had enough of being pregnant, clumsy and knocking into everything on my way? YES YES YES!!

It felt like just yesterday that we found out that we are pregnant with our 2nd baby. 
I am thankful I survived the nausea, the sleeplessness and all the whatnots. 
Now, I am anxious about the arrival of our little one.  At the same time, I want to keep her in me for as long as I can where she is safe and protected from harm.  But again, I am on the verge of raising white flag because of the pelvic pain, getting up 100 times to go to the loo in the midnight, the feeling of carrying a 10kg bowling ball between my legs and etc.
This pregnancy feels like forever but it is a bountiful blessing nevertheless. Whenever I think of my dear friend who just experienced her 3rd miscarriage, this pregnancy and baby is definitely and surely a priceless gift from our Heavenly Father.