Wednesday, September 8, 2010

One or Two?

One is comfortable yet lonely. Two is merry but chaotic.

~D I L E M M A~

I found myself giving excuses if others can settle with just one, why can't I.

Deep down in our hearts, we want a second baby because we know Isabelle does not deserve the loneliness. When I look at her, sometimes it makes me want to cry. I feel selfish not feeling determined to give her a sibling. Even when posting this make me teary.

I am not getting any younger and I know I am racing with time. It is like now or maybe never.

So many issues and concerns to weigh. Help will be needed, whether I can cope with 2, financial.... the list seems endless.

When I was pregnant with Isabelle, I was always worrying and in doubts about almost everything & anything. Whenever we talk about having 2nd baby, DH would remind me, "Did we worry? Yes we did. But did we make it through? Yes we did too!"

Sigh.

We will see if God wants to surprise us with 2nd bundle of joy....


8 comments:

cheri said...

God will give you a second one in His time. enjoy the solitude. at least, you'll be able to provide isabelle undivided attention, something a toddler needs.

dont fret. i'll pray with you :)

Catheryn @ PinkBibs said...

Cheri,
Thank u for your kind words. Yes, God will make things beautiful in His time.
Thank u for your prayer too :D

lyncpf513 said...

Hope very soon the dilemma will soon be gone.. Like I said, you are a wonderful mom.. Mom of 1 or 2 u r still a wonderful mom...

Catheryn @ PinkBibs said...

Thank u Lyn for listening to my dilemma-ish rambling earlier and most of all, thank u for your encouragement and support. It means a lot to me. I am going to put it aside. If God wants it for us, it will happen no matter what. And if that is what He want for us, He will walk us through as He has done in the past :)

I'm a full-time mummy said...

Hi Cat,

Sorry been pretty busy lately.

I don't think age matters. Not when it comes to God. Look how old Sarah is when she got Isaac. If it is (or isn't) your time, you cannot (and should not!) worry about it.

Trust in Him cos He will provides! :)

Catheryn @ PinkBibs said...

Jenny,
Thank you and glad to see you here.
Yes, I must remember that God is in control and He also provides :)
Have a jolly long weekend!

LittleLamb said...

Cast all ur cares upon HIM and he will take care of you. God want you to multiply..I'm sure God will take care of all ur needs.

Catheryn @ PinkBibs said...

Thank u Little Lamb! We must always remember how little we are because God is big and awesome and His plans are always right and the best for us :)