One or Two?

One is comfortable yet lonely. Two is merry but chaotic.

~D I L E M M A~

I found myself giving excuses if others can settle with just one, why can't I.

Deep down in our hearts, we want a second baby because we know Isabelle does not deserve the loneliness. When I look at her, sometimes it makes me want to cry. I feel selfish not feeling determined to give her a sibling. Even when posting this make me teary.

I am not getting any younger and I know I am racing with time. It is like now or maybe never.

So many issues and concerns to weigh. Help will be needed, whether I can cope with 2, financial.... the list seems endless.

When I was pregnant with Isabelle, I was always worrying and in doubts about almost everything & anything. Whenever we talk about having 2nd baby, DH would remind me, "Did we worry? Yes we did. But did we make it through? Yes we did too!"

Sigh.

We will see if God wants to surprise us with 2nd bundle of joy....